Kick, kick. Yep still kicking. Thought I better check. Day two of some energy, wow this is almost to good to believe. I woke up yesterday and was dumb struck at the amount of energy I seemed to have. I wasted no time in taking action. I did some tidying, which my place really needed. After some time I even managed to sweep outside, as the lawn was just mowed. Now I wish I could say that I mowed it, but no, we not quite at that stage yet. 🙂 At the end of this I still seemed to be able to keep going. I thought I was in heaven, I done all this stuff and still wasn’t washed out. So I figured I should stop and take it easy for a bit. I still had enough go to get out some of my old broken computers and start to see if I can get them going. So taking it easy and doing something other than just watching some YouTube or something similar. It was so nice.

That also means I now have something to update everyone on. I really don’t want to be updating you all on the same thing over and over again. For two reasons, one it’s boring, and two, maybe more importantly I prefer to focus on the positive. So if I keep updating you all on the fact that I am having a hard time, I most probably will bring more hard times on myself, especially if at the time I have no energy. I’m not sure that’ll make sense to you, it makes sense in my head. 🙂 In short I suppose I like to be able to keep a state of equipoise, balance positive and negative.

So the bad news, the chemo seems to be hitting hard at the moment. There is a good chance that my body is just slowly been worn down over time, we are two thirds of the way through now. That is exactly what we were expecting. So really no surprise there. It just don’t feel so good. 🙂 The side effects still include fatigue, obviously. And most notably the pain in my arm, still just one arm at this stage. I tried to forgo the pain killers this week. but after about a week of my arm really hurting I gave in eventually, so been taking those for about two days now. Seems to be working, I just really don’t like taking them. The thing is, when I do take them, they dulling the pain in my arm. But they would obviously dull any other pain as well. So if some other ailment came to me I would have no idea. Most notably a head ache, which is usually one of the first signs that something is wrong in your body. If you can’t feel the head ache you would have no idea. I don’t like that plus I have to be really careful at the moment as my immune system is quite low. So the less pain killers the better. 🙂

Anyway now the good news. 🙂 Today is the second day of good energy, so doing more useful stuff, like writing this blog. And sorting out some business that needed dealing with. Also managed to go for a walk, all the way to the beach and along it for a bit. The weather has warmed up a bit so it was Awesome to walk bare footed. I love feeling the world beneath my feet. Did you know your feet has the most nerve endings compared to any other part of your body. In fact I can feel many of them right now. As its been a while since I walked barefoot, so they are quite soft at the moment and at least half my walk was on the hot tar road. Actually it is nice to have my feet hurt a bit, makes a change from my arm hurting. 🙂

I’ll stop there for now, otherwise this will go for way to long. A huge thank you to those who made comments of encouragement and concern. I really do appreciate them all. 🙂

Stay Awesome.

Positively, T Neil van Rooyen.